Think about every single thing that could go wrong in every single situation you have going on in life right now. Take all of your good opportunities and examine them over and over again until you see no goodness in them.
This is how I would define anxiety. Anxiety is a joy-stealer in every way imaginable. It takes every little task and makes it seem like you have to climb a mountain to complete it.
I hate anxiety. That’s a super simple statement when anxiety is anything but. Anxiety feels like total helplessness combined with frustration, anger, and hurt.
When genuine, dreadful anxiety strikes, it’s like nothing can be done. That’s the worst feeling in the entire world, because it becomes so easy to be brought down into a really dark place.
This is why anxiety truly is a silent killer. I don’t know if it’s like this for others (because anxiety is different for everyone who suffers from it) but nothing manages to steal my happiness more than this emotion does.
There are times when I’m the happiest person on the planet, but anxiety grabs me and refuses to let go for weeks on end. There are nights when I wake up from anxiety attacks at 3 a.m. for no good reason other than to cry over every potential thing that could go wrong in my life.
The thing is, it seems like anxiety always wins. I’m proud of myself for going two days without an anxiety attack, but the minute I have one that pride is immediately gone.
Satan literally THRIVES off of our anxiety. Nothing makes the devil happier than seeing us suffer, hence why anxiety is so strong when we are at our best. He’s really good at pointing out everything that is wrong with us.
He’s also good at trying to make us feel like we don’t deserve happiness. He makes us confused, and makes us hurt, and let’s anxiety ravish our lives. This is terrifying.
I have a news flash though, friends. In the end Satan will NEVER win. Ever.
That’s such a relief to me. It’s so comforting to know that I serve a Savior who is bigger than my anxiety.
Satan uses doubt, and worry, and anger, and frustration, and every other devastating emotion to make us feel like we are worthless, but we are created in the image of God who is Perfection.
This is why Satan’s opinion of us is the most irrelevant thing in the entire world. We have victory in Christ who tells us to cast our anxiety on Him.
He wants to carry our burdens because he cares for us. This is what gets me through the battle of anxiety that goes on inside of my mind.
Sometimes it feels like an uphill battle, but I have this constant reassurance that I’m never fighting alone.
I know that I’m not the perfect Christian, and the anxiety that I face is a witness to that, but I’m working daily to grow myself in Christ and lean on that eternal love.
Anxiety has absolutely destroyed some of the best moments of my life. I am so sorry for anyone who suffers from anxiety. I feel for you and I love you.
We still have so much life to live, though. Anxiety will not be the end.